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15 years later

All of that happened a very long time ago and most of it is quite foggy at best, those were heady times, yet a good deal of the memories and images of those times are now just fractured slivers of a broken mirror, created by a life time of other distractions... There is a lot to reflect on -but the pieces can never go back the same way... Like us... Like a broken mirror... We are changed forever...

***

I stayed in for a good long while in the days and weeks that following my slipping away from the party sometime early that morning. After seeing and feeling Patti stabbing me in the heart as I watched her, on her knees, sucking Brad's cock.

I knew then and there I couldn't do this anymore, I couldn't allow myself to be Patti's little cuckold boyfriend... Even if I didn't know that there was a term for what she was doing to me...

My only contact with her was through the message my mother had passed on to me about attending the last of the weddings -- to which of course, I blanked her. I didn't respond then and neither did she try to contact me ever again after that.

I guess we both closed a book that day...

I never thought about 'not' seeing Patti again, sure I was devastated at the time, hurt and feeling sad and pining. But as my Mom pointed out once during a conversation, I was probably better off to have lost her then, rather to have spent years on end falling all over her, just to have this same outcome -- to lose her -just at some other time... Sage advice indeed...

Some time had passed when she said this to me, my smart Mom... So it wasn't too much longer before I was starting to think with my head again and not my heart, which did help me cope and learn to move on.

***

"Dale..? Dale Horn..? Is that - - Is that you..?" I heard from behind me as I stood in line to use the AMT outside of my bank. Turning and looking to see who was calling me, calling my name -and when I did turn, I was quite surprised to see that the person standing behind me, the guy calling my name was none other than Patti's brother-in-law... Darren.

"Oh shit..." I thought to myself.

"Oh hey! It's -- Darren right..?" I said back to him as I recognized him right away, 15yrs or not, there are just some people you don't forget --and it was especially hard if that guy 'may' have kissed you on the lips a long time ago... So for this obvious reasons... I didn't want to let him think I had remembered him so readily and so vividly...

"Yeah my little buddy how are you man? It's been like years... You look good, haven't changed much... You're hair is nice like that, shorter than it used to be -but still I spotted my 'little-buddy' right away..." Darren said to me sounding just a bit more excited than I would have expected. However, I was quite flattered that he did remember me and he was so enthused.

Actually, that's a lie... I was quite flattered that he did remember -and not only that, but because he paid me a compliment about my hair as well. I'm sure I was blushing -and I even didn't mind him calling me - 'my little-buddy'...

It was a name he gave me whenever we went out to smoke a joint or a quick bowl of some primo' weed he always seemed to be packing. I was his 'little-joint-buddy' as he had joked back then, shortening the name later to just 'little-buddy' but I didn't care, I liked Darren he had a certain charisma that couldn't be ignored -- that and he had always had great weed.

Looking at him, I couldn't help but think that the years had been as good to him as well. He looked great and didn't look like time had worn him down at all. In fact if anything, as I looked at him, I was starting to see that he looked even better now, more mature, stately and together.

Still tall with and strong looking, not like a line-backer or anything, just fit and in shape for a guy who had to be pushing 50yrs of age by now. His hair, still dark brown and well kept, but what caught my eye and had me thinking that he looked better now than he had back then was seeing the slight frosting of grey hairs in his sideburns. He looked even more manly and mature after all of these years -and I dared to say it to myself... He looked kind-of hot.

"Hey listen, if you're not too busy I'd love to buy you a coffee and chat for a while, you disappeared that night and we were left wondering what happened to you. It was like you just disappeared in a puff of smoke..." Darren asked leaving me taken back a bit, but still, I felt my pulse quicken as he told me this.

"Really man... You did leave us all guessing, so if you don't mind..?" Darren asked and if I wasn't mistaken he sounded like he was a bit desperate in some way. Like he 'had' to know or that maybe there was some sort of bet that they'd made where each chose something that had happened to me, why I had disappeared... I'd like to believe Patti would know the real reason.

"Well..." I began, sounding reticent, unsure.

"Ummm... Well, that's a long story --but I don't want?I don't want to take up your time..." Pendik Ukraynalı Escort I started, sounding quiet and reserved -but then Darren cut in. "Ah don't be ridiculous, I'll always have time for you little-buddy... Come on man... I want to catch up with you so let me just do my banking here and we'll go, I know a place close by..."

I didn't say anything else, just nodding a quick assent. I knew he wasn't going to take no for an answer and to tell the truth, I was kind of interested now. Now that he said they were wondering what had happened to me -and not just that, but by the way he said things with such an interest, such an urgency.

The bigger worry I was forming had to do with my replaying that night over in my head, and more so, not entirely thinking about the 'kiss' but how I had turned this chance encounter into something sexual -and how that scene played over in my mind where I was unashamedly dressed up in the 'gifts' from my Mom, masturbating on my bed with the thoughts and vision of that night with Darren - the night he kissed me.

***

Five minutes later we were sitting at a table in a near-by street cafe with me all ears wanting to hear what Darren had to say...

"It's really great to see you Dale, but now that I've found you, and have you here -tell me, what the hell happened? Where did you go..? Why'd you stop coming around..?" Darren started, getting back to his original line of questions.

Again, as flattered as I was at how interested he and the others were, who I could only assume were Patti and her sister Carol, I had to wonder why Patti hadn`t told them what had happened, or told Carol who would undoubtedly tell Darren while sharing a little pillow talk in bed.

Maybe Patti didn`t know that I had watched her with Brad? It was possible but still, her not reaching out to me other than to extend to me that 'wedding-ultimatum' via a telephone message delivered through my Mom -that said quite a lot to me. It told me that she was embarrassed and that she didn't blame me for not wanting to continue with her, or with whatever it was that we were...

Looking at him, I didn't understand... "You mean Patti never said anything? Never said that she might even know why..? Why I walked out of there that morning, hung over and lost in some neighbourhood..?"

Darren could tell I was getting upset... "No man, she didn't say anything but you seem to know something we don't -- well it seems that way because you sound kind of pissed..." He said to me, and I did feel kind of bad.

"Sorry man, I'm not really mad just a bit shocked is all...So she really never said anything...?" I asked again, explaining to him that I wasn't mad and sounding a little more pleading now, because I was actually quite surprised.

"No man, nothing... Not a word... Well, not for a long time anyway, then she did open up some, but when she did talk, I will say that she sounded like she was sorry about something... You know that way people talk where they feel like that? When they're probably guilty about something..? I picked up on it but didn't say anything to her; I didn't want to beat her up or anything. She never said that she knew why you just up and walked away... Didn't she ever contact you..?"

"Well, yeah she did --once... It was a couple of days later but I was still pretty broken up and told my Mom that I didn't want to talk to her. We were supposed to be going to another wedding but after that last one and what happened..?" I started saying, and then stopped, wondering how much I should tell him of what I saw in the mirror as I stood in that darkened corridor all of those years ago.

"But what..? What happened..? Its okay man, you can tell me -and remember it was a long time ago..." Darren said and then oddly in a gesture of reassurance he put his hand atop mine as we sat, separated with just a small patio table between us.

Hesitating with his sudden touch, my head feeling cloudy, my mouth gone dry, it took me a second to gather myself before I could talk.

"I saw... I saw her there, that morning I saw her... I don't think she saw me though, that's why she doesn't know..." I said to him after finally finding my tongue -but I'm sure to Darren, I sounded like I was talking in riddles.

"Saw her..? Saw her where? What are you saying man..? I thought you went in to crash..? Where did you see her..?" Darren asked, taking his hand off of mine, confused with what I was saying, and I didn`t blame him... I needed to take a breath...

Waiting and thinking, I looked out into the busy street and not at Darren, I exhaled and then began to tell him what I had witnessed that morning.

"Yeah, I did go into crash, I found some cots set up in the basement but a few hours later I woke up dying for a piss so, not knowing the place, I stumbled around until I finally found a bathroom in the front hall..."

Darren sat listening with intent, saying nothing while I talked.

"When I was finished and came back down to sleep for a few more hours... Well that Pendik Üniversiteli Escort was my plan anyway, that was until thought I heard a laugh that sounded like Patti. It was coming from somewhere down there in the basement." I went on telling my story -but from the look on Darren's face I think he already had an idea of where I was going.

"Yeah... And..?" He said then, sitting back a questioning look about him, folding his arms like a teacher who has caught one of his pupils cheating and was testing their lies.

Sighing, I went on... "When I went to where I thought I heard her, I stopped again when I then heard what sounded like a guy this time...He was groaning..."

Looking up I could see Darren's eyes go wide --and with another heavy hearted sigh, I continued.

"I could see down the hallway, I saw a light at the end... It was morning by then, but it was dark down there so it was easy to see a light was on... But once I was closer, I could see them, reflecting off of a mirror on the wall in the hall-way..." Again I stopped, not sure if I could continue reliving this story.

"Oh fuck..! Let me guess..." Darren began, seeing more of the picture now.

"She was in there with that douche-bag Brad wasn't she..?" He added, finishing my explanation for me.

"She was going down on him... She was on her knees, sucking his cock... I watched for maybe a minute and then I took off..." I said, telling Darren what I had witnessed and thinking for a second, wondering why I went into telling him the details, saying that I saw Patti -- his sister-in-law -- sucking Brad's cock...

"Oh man that's tough, I'm sorry man --and it's too bad too..." Darren said in wanting to console me, but instead he left me rather confused and leaving me to question. "W-why's that..? Why was it 'to-bad-too'...?"

Sitting up now in my chair, my interest piqued, I sat and waited for Darren to tell me his side of things, what he saw and what he had heard.

Also, I already knew just how smart and world-wise Darren was so, I knew that any advice he'd give me could be taken to heart. Even after all of these years, within a minute or two of taking with him I felt I could trust him.

"Well after what you've told me, I can see things a little better now. I knew there was something, some reason why you just up and disappeared like that... Darren said then, continuing while I listened to him this time.

"And I said it was 'too-bad' because we all liked you, even Carol warmed up to you after a while, she told me later that she thinks she misjudged you." Darren went on; I sipped my coffee, indeed listening and also rather amazed.

"Now I know why she was so quiet and never said anything... She was embarrassed - she knew that she hurt you and she was afraid to tell Carol and me, so instead -she let you go... I guess she only called about the wedding as like a courtesy -- what a bitch! Oh I'm gonna have a few words with her at home tonight, that's for sure..." Darren went on saying. His mention of seeing Patti, 'at-home' and 'tonight' piquing my interest even more.

"What..?" I said then with a start, a long buried fear rising within me.

"No please, don't say anything to her... I don't want to get her in trouble..." I said to him, sounding like I was back peddling and begging him all of a sudden.

"Oh don't you worry, Patti knows how to get into trouble all by herself, even if she did change all these years later..." Darren added then, still leaving me to question.

"But what did you mean Darren..? When -when you get home"..? I began to ask.

"What..? Did you and Carol break up and then you ended up marrying Patti a few years later...?" I said asking again with a laughing gesture -but I was a little surprised when he didn't seem to think it was all the funny...

"Well..." Darren began, his hesitation giving me brief cause to panic believing that my joke may in fact be more of true statement than I could have believed...

"No... Not exactly -Carol and I are still very happily married, it's just that... Patti..." Darren began, and then stopped looking like he didn't know what to say...

"Okay, let me tell you this..." He started once more, this time sitting up; looking like his thoughts had been gathered.

"About ten years back now I fell into a lucky break where the metal shop I owned created something for the auto industry and once all of the major manufactures were on board, the whole thing just kind of took off... Suddenly I was doing quite well... Exceptionally well in fact..."

"Wow..! That's awesome..! I'm really happy for you..! That must be kinda like winning the lottery huh..? That's so cool man... Congrats indeed..!" I said in congratulating him and suddenly feeling that it might be a good idea for me, Darren's 'little-buddy' to keep himself on the mature, older man's good side.

However, that's not entirely true, riches were never in my sights and I wasn't the gold digging type. Never the less, with hearing this news, I Pendik Vip Escort did feel myself wanting to bow to him even more than I did already. But also, I wanted to keep things friendly, so I made another little joke after a pause.

"So... Umm dude..? Where's my Porsche..?" I said to him with a comical, questioning gesture with my hands, palms open and held up.

"Pffft..! Ha-ha-ha..! Good one man, that's funny... Darren laughed in a faux-spit gag while holding his coffee cup.

"I miss that about you, I always thought you were funny, in a sarcastic way -which, if I can pay you that compliment, is a sign of intellect there little-buddy...Or in other words, You must be kinda smart because idiots can't be sarcastic and funny like you..!"

"Ha-ha..! Thanks man and you can compliment me any time you want..!" I said then laughing back at his comment about idiots and sarcasm. Yet a small part of me cringed in side when I said that back to him... I wished I hadn't...

"So tell me more man... What does your business success have to do with Patti..?" I asked, trying to move on.

"Oh, oh yean right... Well... When things started getting good -- really good --and so Carol convinced me to hire Patti in our sales department where she could work off the back of the big 3 auto makers using our product. And it turns out she's really good at it... After the trouble she found herself in, she's changed quite a bit..." Darren explained and went on. His last comment not going unmissed, but I let him continue.

"So anyway, when Carol and I were looking for a bigger house -- which she wanted more than I did -- because to be honest, I could care less where I live, I thought our house was just fine -but no..." Darren went on, kind of babbling but I wasn't stopping him.

"Yeah so... When we were looking, we found this great place, an old farm that not only had a great house that Carol loved right away but it also has a huge gate house..." Darren continued, sounding like he had indeed hit the jack-pot.

"We renovated both and now Patti lives in the gate house and we're up at the main house with about 500 yards of lawn between us... We even have golf carts to go back and forth!" Darren explained, sounding happy and if not just as surprised with his good fortune as I was.

"Wow..." I said again -- really quite impressed with their good fortune and the set up they seem to have going. But still I was hoping to hear more about Patti, like how she's changed 'quite-a-bit'...

"I'm so happy for you guy's and I hate to pry but what do you mean that Patti has changed? And also you said that she found herself in some trouble..? I don't understand..? And I'm sorry... Sorry if I'm prying... I mean you -- you can't blame me for being curious..."

"Nahh... You're not prying little-buddy..! That's why we're here chatting -to catch up and find out what we've each been doing for all of these years... But before I tell you anymore about Patti - tell me something about you... What's been happening with you all of these years..?" Darren came back asking, turning the light on me and my meagre life -- which as it turns out, there was more than one big fat secret that I'd been harbouring all of these years.

"Well... I can't say I've had as an extravagant life like you have..." I started, reserved now and feeling like there was no way I could compete with what he was telling me, about how great things had turned out for him.

"I don't care about that man, I just wanna know what you've been up to, where are you living now..? He asked and again, I felt reluctant to come out with too much but as I've said, Darren is different, so I did opened up to him..."

"Well... Don't misunderstand me but I live at home again, with my Mom..." I said to him, suddenly feeling a little reserved pride, after all I didn't really have anything to hide, there was nothing wrong with my living arrangements -- or so I wanted to believe.

"Oh really..? How'd that come about..? Sounds like you were out but you moved back... What happened did your wife catch you fucking her sister or something..?" Darren came back laughing, making his own joke this time, which did put me at ease, we both laughed.

"Ha-ha... No I was out on my own but then my Dad passed away rather quickly and my Mom wasn't doing too well. So with Dad's estate -and his pension being paid out, we had the house renovated into two large apartments with a connecting door. That way I can keep an eye on her but still have my own place... So I'm not technically 'living' with my Mom, it's more like we share a duplex..."

"Oh man..! Darren said with genuine concern. "Sorry to hear about you old guy, that sucks but it sounds like you're doing good by your Mom, that's very admiral of you -- you're a good son... Darren told me, putting me at ease as always. He went on...

"Not a lot of guys would do that, all they'd want is their Dad's cash and Mom is left to fend for herself... I'm proud of you man, that's a really cool thing to do..."

"Wow" I said again, but this time not aloud but rather to myself. I didn't want Darren to know just how much he'd flattered me by saying all of that... I almost laughed out loud thinking to myself that I could kiss him right then...I had to stifle myself though and I was very careful now not to let anything like that slip out.